Happy Birthday

To see your smile a thousand times,
would be a greater gift enough.
But to kiss your lips a thousand more,
would be even stronger stuff.

Happy birthday my Francesca Locke

I Love you xxxx <3 <3 <3

My Personal Monster

I find that I am slowly going into a stressful state due to my work at college. Everytime I think of my work, my stomach seems to squeeze on itself and I can feel bile working its way up into my throat. Though the actual physical reaction has yet to happen.

I can now have a feeling of understanding for 'Frankenstein' in when he was making the creature. For all those who do not know what I mean, here is a quote in which may help you to understand what I mean:

'I appeared rather like one doomed by slavery to toil in the mines…I shunned my fellow creatures as if I had been guilty of a crime'

Thankyou.

I Wish...

I wish I could help you, seeing you so small,
Your memory is not what it was, but your heart remains the same.
I say I love you, but you can only stare into my eyes,
There is a familiarity, but also a loss of yourself.

I remember those times where you would walk strong,
Go on with your day and keep moving on.
You are still alive, but how alive, I do not know,
your brain? Your life? Or even your soul?

You see me sometimes and your thoughts go through,
trying to regain the face of recognition.
You think am I your nephew or maybe your son?
But I am going to be honest with you,
I am your grandson.

You may stay in that sofa, or maybe your bed,
trying to rest your weary confused head.
Your painful stiff legs, no longer in use,
wishing that they were even a little bit loose.

So I'll do you a favour and make your wish,
I'll make your memories mine so you won't forget
that there are those who will never forget you.

I love you nan, and I know you do too.

What's older than a 10 year old dog?

An 11 year old one.

You can teach an old dog new tricks

There's nothing like being showed up by a bunch of 40+ year olds when it comes to Jive.


So there I was, going to my first Jive lesson with my mama (yes and what!) and I was preeeeety confident, I'm not a bad mover when it comes to the dance floor, all those women wanting to dance with me, pinching my arse kissing me on the cheek. Oh yes...I wish girls my age would do that more often and didn't have wrinkles.


So just as we were about to go in mum gives me an interesting fact and a secret of the jive, 'I feel sorry for the men, they have the hardest when it comes to Jive because they are the ones who lead.' I'VE NEVER LED! I just usually end up moving my feet. I am not a bad mover, but I am the youngest of 40+s and they are all thinking, great some young blood, but no now I have to lead...thanks for the confidence boost mum.


So first time in, it's free so I just waltzed over like Billy Big Bollocks Jnr (we call my dad billy big bollcoks cause he has the moooooney) and started talking to some people I knew and asked what it was about. AND THEN IT STARTS.


Nice and slow, beginner's class, and it's all going well, and I am sorry to say gentlemen I did not fall over once or falter so this isn't a funny story.
I am happy to say ladies I did not falter ;-) so don't worry about me stepping on your toes.


I actually had a lot of fun, and I went yesterday  and am really enjoying it. It's nice to just do something, relax, and not have to think about whats happening outside of the hall. I love to dance.


I love my mum for persuading me as well. Thanks mum :-) :-) xxx